Ashley Diaz Multicultural Lit blog

 A time when I wish I could unheard something would have been when I found out that my friends had been talking bad about me behind my back it had started off as a normal week hanging out and having sleepovers wed always have a designated hang out spot after school where we would go and talk about school and what we should do next weekend but as i was walking to one of my classes people started talking about a rumor that was being spread about me and this was something that i had never done I remember going up to some of my friends and they had said I don't talk to us you're weird and told me some really mean stuff after this the whole week was just surrounded by me being humiliated and the rumor that was said was finally heard by me and I wish I could unheard it, it was one of the worst moments in my life these people were never my friends and were only here to humiliate me. Today in class we continued working on our projects and read wild, Today I learned that teamwork does a...

 A time that I had too choose between fitting In and staying true to my identity would have been when my friends would talk about certain stuff and attire they wanted to become popular and know but in this way they had too  change everything about themselves and even their beliefs so that they would appear  more "cool" and pleasant to others they had thought that this would make others like them more and become more close to others but in all of this they made me choose between them or my own truth I didn't know what to do I really wanted to keep my friends but I wouldn't give up in what I believed and  my thoughts just to be different I didn't want to give up God for something worldly, something that was temporary I decided that I would stay true to myself and part ways I lost my friends and the "popularity" but I gained other better people that actually saw me for me as a friend and didn't want me or need me to change myself to be better. Today in ...

 A time where my body ended up having a limit would have been when I wanted to better myself physically and mentally trying to run everyday and work out everyday I would become very interested in reading and just becoming stronger I wouldn't let my  body rest not one bit  and this would become something very deep to me this became one of the biggest regrets but my biggest accomplishment yet I became very aware of what was going on with my body I was overusing it making me mentally worn out I became someone always thinking and worrying about what was next what could possibly happen to my body would it get better or get even worst I started to think it was better to let go of the running and let myself out rest I started to get mentally worst because it made me think I was weak and like I would not be able to ever accomplish my goal I started to get exhausted and overwhelmed about how I had to go on about my days but the more I started to think about this my mental health w...

 A time that I didn't feel like myself would have been when i lost my father i started to not feel like myself i lost the only person that would have me out and about helping me forget all my problems my father played a huge roll in my life he was always so open he wasn't afraid to show his emotions and be who he was he was always present when needed its not like i lived with him though every summer he would come to Atlanta and pick us up just to take us to Florida and this would be a something so special to me the day that my dad called my mom telling her  he was getting pulled over and arrested was the day i felt a rush of emotions all fall on me  i didn't know what to think what would happen to my dad what would come of my family i started to not feel like myself and drown myself in my thoughts i wasn't happy i was lost and not myself anymore i started to hurt it was like my family was going to be gone not to lone after i got a call from my dad i would get to see him...

A time when I had to rely on someone would have been when I had to keep getting rides and money from my uncle because he was the only one with a car at the moment and it was getting to the point where he was the only one I could rely on to get me to the places I needed or wanted to go he started to tell me that it was fine but I could tell it had started to become a burden to him and it was going to start going to cause problems I had started to feel bad because of the constant driving and the gas money was something that I could not give back so It was taking a toll more on me than on him I had started to feel overwhelmed and uneasy about what to do I had to find a job to be able to pay back for all the gas I have been spending but it would still be the same because he would still be having to take me out to work and it would soon be the same routine and would start to become even more money to pay i started to feel like a burden. Today in class we got to read and do another assignmen...

 A time when I had done something without fully understanding its commitment would have been when I had started to go out and start running I had told myself it was going to be just for a couple of days and then I could just walk for the other days but after a while when I was doing this everyday I kept starting to actually like what I was doing and it had started to feel like something in my routine and what I was meant to do it started of as a little hobby but then it became a chore and it was something I had to commit too because it was helping me physically and would get me to be motivated to be better and to realize that I had to keep pushing myself that this would continue to help me so this commitment wasn't a bad thing but it had started to clash with what I had planned for myself and for what I had originally planned in my schedule but this commitment lead me to become the person that I have become is much more different the running also had a meaning to me so this had me ...

 A time when I felt more at peace would have been when I went to Florida for my cousins wedding, This wedding meant something big to me not only was I going to witness a big step for them but I would get too see how real love between teen lovers and if it was real at ,this time we got to stay with my them and those few days they had the best relationship i had seen they were so stable, non toxic and it was like they were free but with the person that they were truly with each other they had such a pure relationship with stable jobs as realtors she was higher than him but he loved to support her and this would make me feel like at home and at peace with all my thoughts it helped me understand that things have to be patient and not rushed at all fast forward to there wedding while we were watching the ceremony as soon as she stepped on the aisle she started crying and so did I it felt like such an intense emotion that helped me understand even more that once you understand that someo...

A time that I had to step out of my comfort zone would have been during second period junior year I always enjoyed sitting in the back on my own and I never liked talking to people in  my classes I would just sit down and mind my own business then this girl walks into the class looking for a seat there is a lot of seats still open and she was coming my way and ended up sitting next to me not too long in the class she started talking to me and at this point I didn't want to talk it was too early in the morning and she was a random stranger I didn't know what to say but she still kept trying to make conversation with me and I decided to give it a try and start talking to her she was actually very nice and very open and talkative I had never met anyone as pure heart as her not only was she very nice and knew how to have a decent conversation but she was very funny too not long after this i became more  open and talkative I started making friends and actually having conversation w...

 One time I took a long hike would have been when I had to walk up some mountain  up to a waterfall or this little lake this outdoor experience was one of the best experiences for me both mentally and physically it made me feel peaceful and happy it created a big impact on my life it helped me enjoy nature and its beauty at its fullest I became more physically stronger I got to work out my body and I got to survive and feel what life is supposed to feel without any home or any utilities  it helped me strengthen my body and my appetite with actually needing food and eating just to eat, but this hike also helped me mentally to be more at peace and to let myself free and let go it also helped me stop overthinking problems and helped me become less stressed taking a hike helps you understand yourself.I feel like taking a hike will also help you erase all your problems and all of a sudden you will feel lighter and like things weren't as deep as you were making them. Today in c...

  During this break I connected with my family and had a lot of fun being with them I enjoyed there company since I don't see them often and they live in another state. During this break I also had a lots of fun and giggles and felt more at peace my life.  1.  My first goal of the year that i want to achieve is to be more financial with my money . This goal will help me become more attentive and to keep track of what is actually important and actual necessities and will help me become more responsible for certain decisions. To accomplish this goal, I will set a budget for myself. I will understand the wages and pay I receive to be prepared for the money i will receive and know how to spend it. I will open a bank account and start putting in at-least 50 dollars each week, and I plan on saving enough to buy a car. this is something i hopefully will accomplish all year.   2. My second goal that i want to achieve this year is to buy a car . This goal will help me get to...